AC. Stuck in a Frozen Lake: Why German Soldiers Did This to French Female Prisoners

I’ve spent almost years trying to erase my memory the sensation of frozen iron biting my wrists while the water went up to my neck. I’m not there never arrived. At 85, I wake up each with the whole body contracted as if I were still sinking into this lake. My skin has not forgotten, my bones have not forgotten and for decades, I carried this silence like a conviction.

But today, for the first time, I’m going to tell you what really happened spent this night in January 1944 when three French women were chained to each other and thrown in a frozen lake in the heart of Germany Nazi. And I will also tell what no one ever knew, how I survived and why in the end I chose to stay alongside one of the men who put me there.

My name is Lucienne Morau. When the war tore me from my life, I was 21 years. My sister Yvon was 19. We were born and raised in Hausson, a small town in the center of France known for its tapestries handmade. His works of art weaved thread after thread into century-old workshops where time seemed to have stopped long before the world does not descend into madness.

My father was like his father before him and father of his father. His hands were wedges, marked by years of meticulous work. My mother sewed house, repaired the clothes of neighbors, embroidered tablecloths for weddings. Life was simple, predictable, reassuring. I worked in a small municipal library installed in a house in Colombage near the Creuse River.

I loved the smell of old books, the soothing silence of winter afternoons, the feeling of touch pages that dozens of hands had turned before me. Yvon helped my mother. She was softer than me, more patient, more dreamer. She wanted to become a teacher. She loved children and spent his Sundays telling them stories under the trees of the central square.

We had normal plans, simple. get married, have children, growing old in this mountainous region where everyone knew everyone world, where families greeted each other leaving mass where the seasons punctuated lives more surely than any clock. The war seemed distant, an affair big cities, politicians in suit, generals around maps.

We heard the news on the radio, we read the newspapers, but it all seemed unreal, like a play performed on stage too far to reach us, until that it ceases to be, until that the war crosses the threshold of our house and takes us by the throat. It was an October morning in 1943 that everything collapsed.

I was in cataloging books, sitting at my desk near the window was overlooking the square when I heard the trucks arrive. I didn’t need to look outside to know. The noise was different, heavy, metallic, threatening. It was the kind of noise that makes your blood run cold even before your brain understand why.

The engines growled like mechanical beasts, the brakes squealed, the doors slammed with sharp violence. They were German vehicles. They are stopped in the central square. Of soldiers got out. their boots pounding the pavement, their voices harsh cutting through the silence of the morning like blades. They were shouting orders.

Names have been read aloud for a list that one of them held in his hand. My name was on that list, the one from Ivon too. There was no formal accusation, no judgment, no explanation, just the order. Gather what could fit into one small suitcase and get in the truck immediately. My mother tried to hold on to me. She stretched out her arms, her face disfigured by a terror that I did not have never seen in her, the lips trembling, unable to form words. A soldier violently pushed him away.

She fell to her knees. My father remained motionless, paralyzed, his eyes filled with tears that he did not let sink because it was of this generation of men who believed that crying was a weakness. But I saw his chest heave too quickly, his hands clenched in point trembling along his body. It was the last time I saw them.

I got into the truck alongside of Ivonne. She was shaking all over body. I took his hand and gave him lied to him that everything was fine happen. I didn’t believe my own words, but that’s what big sisters were doing. Lying to protect, doing pretending to be strong while all the while screams at you in terror.

She looks at me now, decades later, sitting facing the camera in the living room his little house in France with eyes deep and tired who have seen too much. And there is something in his eyes that is not just sadness, it’s knowledge. The kind of knowledge that only comes after having survived the impossible, after having been broken and rebuilt with pieces which never fit together again perfectly.

And as his voice continues, firm and low, calm but loaded with a weight that only those who have been through hell can wear, you realize that this that she is about to reveal is fine beyond what any book story has ever been told. Because it’s not just the story of a war, it is the story of a woman who was destroyed then rebuilt and forced to choose between loyalty and survival, between hatred and humanity, between dying faithful to one’s principles or live carrying a secret that no one would never understand.

And if you think you know what happened passed in this frozen lake, you have no heard nothing yet. The journey to camp lasted four days. We were crammed into wagons goods. 50 women per car, without water, no food, no light. The smell was unbearable. Some women were crying, others were praying.

Yvonne remained silent, clinging to my arm as if I were there only solid thing. in a world that was collapsing. I didn’t know where we let’s go. Nobody knew it. But every kilometer took us further away from France, our language, everything which made us human. When the doors opened, we were in Germany. The camp was called Ravensbruck.

It was a forced labor camp for women located 80 kilometers north of Berlin. Between 1939 and 1945. 30,000 never came out. From the moment we arrived, everything was done to dehumanize us. Our clothes were confiscated. Our close-cropped hair. We were given striped uniforms too large or too small, hooves in wood that hurt our feet and a number sewn on the chest.

Mine was 57,842. Yvon was 57,843. We no longer had names, just numbers. We were locked in freezing barracks, structures in woods where 200 women slept in three plank floors without mattresses. The night, we heard the rats running on the beams. During the day, we worked twelve hours straight in a factory that manufactured military uniforms for the German army.

Our hands were bleeding, our backs were breaking. If you fell sick, you were sent to the infirmary. Few came back. The Guards were merciless. Some took pleasure in humiliating us. They hit us for nothing, for a look, for a movement too slow, for the simple fact of existing. But there was a punishment that exceeded all others in cruelty.

A punishment reserved for women accused of sabotage, theft of food or simply disobedience. The frozen lake, the chetzé, a small lake located just outside of the camp, surrounded by black trees and silent. In winter it was freezing completely. The ice was thick, solid, except near the banks where the water remained liquid, black, icy.

It’s where he was taking us. The first time that I heard about the lake, it was by a Polish woman who worked next to me in the factory. She told me looked straight in my eyes and said “If you go there, you don’t come back the same. If you come back, for weeks, I did everything I could to remain invisible. I worked quickly.

I kept my head down. I don’t didn’t speak. Yvon did the same. But in a place like Ravensbruck, to be invisible was never enough. One evening of January 1944, a guard accused Yvon for stealing a piece of bread from the kitchen. It wasn’t true. Yvon would never have taken this risk, but this had no importance.

The guard had decided that she was guilty. And me, trying to defend, I became guilty too. A third woman, a Frenchwoman named Marguerite, was accused with us. I didn’t know her not good. She was around thirty years, tired eyes and a scar that ran across his left cheek. She almost never spoke. This that evening we were ordered to leave the barracks. It was snowing.

The cold was brutal, the kind of cold that kills skin in seconds. Three guards made us walk through the camp, then beyond the barbed wire towards the lake. When I saw the black water rippling under the moon, I understood. My heart stopped. My legs refused to move forward. A guard pushed me. Yvon cried next to me.

Marguerite was silent, with a blank look, as if she had already accepted what was going arrive. They made us kneel waterside. Then they took out the chains, heavy metal chains rusty, frozen. They tied my right wrist to left wrist from Ivonne, then Ivon’s right wrist on Marguerite’s left wrist. We were linked, chained to each other others, incapable of separating us.

One of the guards said something German that I didn’t understand, a another Harry. Then they pushed us in the water. The water was so cold that during the first seconds, I didn’t felt nothing. Just a shock, an emptiness, as if my body had stopped to exist. Then the pain came, not normal pain, pain that burned from the inside as if every cell of my body screamed at the same time time. My lungs contracted.

My heart beat so fast I thought that it was going to explode. Yvon shouted. Marguerite suffocated. We struggled but chains pulled us down. Water first went up to the waist, then up to the shoulders, then up to the chin. We raised our heads as high as possible, desperately trying to keep our mouths and noses above of the surface.

Our feet were slipping the stones at the bottom. Our bodies trembled so violently that the chains rattled in the darkness. The guards remained on the bank. They smoked cigarettes, they laughed. They spoke among themselves as if we Were not there, as if we were not nothing. From time to time one of them would shout insulted or made an obscene gesture, but Most of the time, they ignored us.

We were just entertainment, a punishment among many others. They knew what the cold did. He knew how long it took to as the body begins to shut down. They had done this before, many times. I don’t know how long we we stayed in this water. One hour maybe two. Time did not exist more. There was only the cold.

The cold that ate away at me, the cold that emptied my thoughts, the cold which transformed my body into something foreign, heavy, useless. Yvon began to lose consciousness first. His head bowed, his eyes closed. I screamed his name. I pulled on the chains for lift, but my own body does not answered more.

Marguerite tried too, but it was weaker than me. We were drowning slowly together, chain together. It is at that moment I heard a voice, not a cry, not an order. A voice calm, almost gentle, who spoke in German. I looked up. A soldier stood on the bank. He was young, maybe 25, with blonde hair, cut short and a serious face.

He wore the uniform Vermarthe standard. He spoke to other guards. He responded by shrugging shoulders, laughing. But he didn’t laugh not. He insisted. His voice became firmer. The others ended up shut up. One of them spat on the ground then walked away. The other two have followed. The soldier went down water.

He didn’t look at us in the eyes. He didn’t speak to us. He has simply grabbed the channels and started pulling us towards the bank. My feet no longer touched the bottom. I was too weak to walk. Marguerite collapsed as soon as we we left the water. Yvon was breathing pain. The soldier dragged us to a small wooden shelter near the lake.

He has opened the door and let us in. To inside there was a blanket, just one. He threw it at us without a word, then he came out. I heard its spent in the snow. We are left there, trembling, half dead, unable to speak. That night, Marguerite is dead. She didn’t never woke up. His body was simply extinguished like a candle.

Yvon and I survived, but somehow something in us had been broken. The next morning, the same soldier is income. He looked at us in silence. Then he said in halting French, you must not say anything. I nodded head. Yvon was too weak to move. He took us back to camp. Nobody asked any questions. Nobody didn’t care to know what happened past.

In a place like Ravensbruck, death and survival were just matters of chance. But this soldier, this man who could have let us die, had made a choice and this choice changed everything. I don’t didn’t even know his name. During weeks after that night at the lake, I only saw him again from a distance, still in uniform, always surrounded by others soldiers.

They patrolled the camp like the others. He was giving orders. He wore the same gray green uniform than those who threw us into the water frozen. But every time our looks crossed paths, even furtively, even for a fraction of a second, there had something. Not pity. The pity would have been insulting. No guilt neither. Guilt would have been too easy, too superficial.

It was something quieter, deeper, like a mutual recognition, as if had seen in me what I saw in him. A human being stuck in a nightmare that he had not chosen, trying to preserve what remained of his humanity in a place designed to destroy it methodically. It took Yvon weeks to recover. She had developed an infection severe lung disease which made her cough day and night.

a tourque and heartbreaking which made his whole body tremble. She was spitting blood into rags that I hid so the guards wouldn’t you don’t, knowing that any weakness visible was a death sentence in this place. At night I held her against me to share what was left of heat in our emaciated bodies. I begged her to hold on, not to give up, keep breathing, even when every breath seemed stab her from the inside.

I promised him that one day all this would be over, that we would return to Aubusson, that we would see the mountains, the river, the cobbled streets of our childhood. I didn’t know if I believed my own words, but that was all I had to offer. Lies comforting whispered in the icy darkness of a barracks where two women were slowly dying.

One evening in February, while I came back from the factory with a group of exhausted prisoners walking silent column in the dirty snow, the soldier motioned for me to follow him. My heart stopped dead. A cold different from that of winter crossed. I thought he was going to denounce, that he was going to punish me, that our brief moment of humanity shared at lakeside had only been an illusion and that now he was going to make me pay for having survived.

The others prisoners looked at me with eyes empty, resigned, used to seeing their companion disappear without explanation. But the soldier took me to a small empty administrative building, far from looks, a cold room that smelled of moldy paper and ink. He closed the door behind us. Then, without a word, he took out of his pocket a piece of bread, real bread, not the crumbs rotten infested with weevils that we distributed to us in the camp.

Bread white, almost fresh, which gave off still a faint smell of yeast. I have looked at the bread. Then I looked at him him. He avoided my gaze, his eyes fixed on an invisible point above from my shoulder as if he were ashamed. Then he said in this French awkward, hesitant, with an accent thick German which distorted the words: eat a single word, an order that sounded almost like a plea.

I don’t didn’t know what to do. My mind is beat against himself. Accept the food from an enemy was betrayal everything I believed in. It was collaborate. It was submitting to me. But I was so hungry. Yvon had so hungry. My hands were shaking, my stomach shouted and in this moment suspended between pride and survival, I made a choice.

I took the bread, he nodded, a brief, jerky movement. Then he is left without another word, closing the carries behind him with gentleness unexpected. It was only the beginning. At Over the next few months he continued to help me. Always discreetly, always dangerously. He slipped me food when no one was looking, hidden in newspapers folded or wrapped in rags, a few potatoes, a piece of sausage, sometimes just a handful of stolen sugar in the officers’ kitchens.

He diverted the attention of others guards when Ivon was too weak to working, making excuses, creating distractions. He once falsified a report medical so that it is not sent in the infirmary. this white building from which almost no one came back. He beams his list number, replaced his name by that of a prisoner already dead.

I didn’t understand why he took such risks. Why did he put his own life in danger for two women French women who were not officially only numbers in a register? A day, while we were alone in a dark corridor of the main building between two patrols, I asked him the question directly. My voice was barely a whisper.

For what ? He hesitated at length. His eyes swept across the empty hallway, checking that no one could hear us. Then he told me, almost in one breath: “I have a sister, she’s your age.” That was all. not additional explanation, no moral justification, no speech about good and evil, just these a few words. And of a certain way, it was enough.

It was even more powerful than any great speech could have been because I understood. He saw his sister in me and by saving me, maybe he was trying to save something from itself, something the war didn’t have still completely destroyed. But helping a prisoner was a crime punishable by death. If someone had discovered it, if another guard had denounced him, if an officer had noticed his behavior, he would have been executed, probably shot at dawn in the courtyard behind the barracks, where we sometimes heard the salvos which

woke us up with a start. And me also, he would have hanged me or worse. Yet he continued. week later week, month after month, risking everything for gestures that seemed derisory, but which made all the difference between dying today and survive until tomorrow. And me, without even realizing it, I started to count on him, wait for these moments fleeting moments where he appeared with a piece of bread hidden in his pocket, a reassuring glance exchanged through the frozen courtyard, a little fragile proof that humanity had not completely

disappeared from the world. I learned his name in March, Carl. He told me one evening when we found ourselves alone near latrines. A place that guards avoided because the smell was unbearable. Carl Schneider, he came from Bavaria, from a small village near Munich. He had been enlisted in 1941 at age 19. He had no choice.

Refused, it was condemned his entire family. He told me told all this in his French hesitating, searching for words, stopping sometimes in the middle of a sentence because that he didn’t find the right term. He told me he hated what he had become, that he no longer slept night, that every day in this camp stole a little more of his soul, but that he couldn’t leave, that he couldn’t could not disobey, that he too was a prisoner of a different way but just as real.

One evening in March while the war was clearly affecting to its end and the Soviet troops approached from the east like a tide inevitable, chaos invaded Ravensbruck. The guards burned documents in large metal barrels who smoked day and night. The air smelled the burned paper and the panic. The prisoners whispered that the liberation was near, that the Russians were happening, that all this was finally going to happen finish.

But no one really knew what was going to happen. Some guards talked about us evacuate to other camps further away the west. Others spoke of erasing all the evidence, which meant execute us en masse. The tension was palpable, electric, suffocating. It was that night that Carl ordered me to leave.

He found me in the barracks while most women were sleeping or trying to sleep despite the fear. He knelt near from my bunk. and whispered to me urgent, almost pleading voice. Take your sister, get out of camp now, this night. I didn’t understand. I have shook her head, confused, terrified the idea of running away, knowing that the fugitives were always caught and hanged as an example. But he insisted.

He explained to me that a transport was scheduled for the next morning. The prisoners too weak to walk, those which would slow down the evacuation, would all be shot down in the courtyard. He had seen the document, he had read the list. Ivon’s name was on it, mine was too.

He took out from under his jacket some civilian clothes stolen, crumpled and smelling musty, but which would make it possible not to resemble escaped if we were seen from afar. A gray dress for me, another for Yvon, a coat too big. A hand-drawn map was waiting for me. hand with paths traced in ink, crosses marking the places dangerous, circles indicating abandoned farms where we could hide us, precise instructions, meticulously detailed, fruit of happiness of secret preparation.

Then he told me looked straight in the eye and saw something breaking inside him. A resignation, acceptance. He said voice broken. I can’t do anything more. Leave now. I didn’t have the time to thank him. I don’t have cried. I just woke up Yvon. I him I put the dress on my back and we are gone into the cold night crossing a section of barbed wire that he had cut earlier and which he had left open for us.

The last thing I have seen, it was his motionless silhouette in the darkness, watching us disappear in the woods. We walked for three days hidden in ditches, avoiding main roads. We stole food from farms abandoned. We drank the water streams. Yvon could barely hold on standing, but she walked because she knew that if she stopped, we we would both die.

On April 30, 1945 we were found by a Red Army unit. They us taken to a refugee camp. We gave us food, blankets, medical care. We were free. But freedom had not not the taste I imagined. She had the taste of emptiness, of loss, of absence. We returned to France months later. At the bush no longer existed as I remembered it.

Our house had been requisitioned. Our parents were dead. My father of a heart attack, my mother grief according to neighbors. Yvon and I we tried to reconstruct something thing, but it never happened really discounted. She died in 1952 at 27 years old from pneumonia. The doctors said that these lungs had never recovered from the cold. I survived.

But I carried the lake with me every day. Every night in 1947 I received a letter. She came from Germany. He was the soldier. He had survived to war. He lived in a small town near Munich. He wrote to me for tell me that he often thought of me, that he hoped I was okay, that he regretted everything that had happened.

I didn’t answer, not right away, but I kept the letter. He continued to write to me once a year, always same thing. News of his life, questions about mine, no excuses, no justification, just words. In 1950, I replied: “I don’t know why. Maybe because I was alone, perhaps because he was there only person in the world who understood what I had experienced.

” We have started corresponding. Then in 1953, he came to France. We are met in a café in Paris. It was strange, painful, but also strangely familiar. He was no longer a soldier. I was no longer a prisoner. We were just two broken people trying to figure out how to continue to live. I returned to Germany with him.

We got married in 1954. A lot of people judged me. My own family rejected me. Friends told me turned his back. I was called traitor, collaborator, but he didn’t know. He had not been in this lake. He didn’t see what he had done. He didn’t understand that sometimes survival and love are born in darkest places. We have lived together for 46 years.

He is died in 2000. I cried not because I had forgotten what it represented, but because he had become something else thing. Someone who had seen me, who had saved me. who had chosen humanity when he could have chosen obedience. Today, at 85, I know that my life will never be understood. Some will say that I betrayed my homeland, others will say that I simply survived.

I say that I did this that I could with what was given to me and that forgiveness sometimes does not come from the outside, it comes from the inside. The lake is still there. I returned to Ravensbruck once. In, the camp became a memorial. The lake is silent, peaceful. But when I approached the water, I felt the cold come back.

My hands shook, my heart sank and I understood that I will never free myself from it. Not really, because some things don’t heal not. They just become part of who you are. 5 years after this interview, Lucienne Morau died in her sleep. She was 90 years old. She never regretted her choices and she never forgot the lake. The story of Lucienne Morau does not appear in any school textbook.

His name does not appear on any memorial. For years she carried this silence like a wound that never heals never until she finally found the courage to speak. 5 years after this interview, she died peacefully in his sleep, carrying with her the last echoes of this night of January 1944. But his testimony continues to reason.

He reminds us that behind every number, every statistic of war hides a whole life. A woman who was 21 years old, a sister, a girl, a human being who deserved to live. What Lucienne experienced in this frozen lake is beyond belief. But this which is perhaps even more disturbing, it’s the choice she made after the war.

Marry the man who wore the uniform of his executioners, live with him, to build a life alongside him. Many have judged him, many have condemned without ever having known hunger which devours from the inside, the cold which extinguishes the soul, the terror that paralyzes every thought. Lucienne didn’t ask let us understand it.

She asked simply that we recognize that it had survived the only way that she could and that sometimes in absolute darkness humanity is not where we don’t expect it. His story forces us to ask questions that we would prefer to avoid. Could we forgive someone who has done something wrong to us bad if in a crucial moment he had chose to save us? Where is the border between betrayal and survival, between collaboration and compassion, between revenge and redemption? Lucien passed decades of asking these same questions and until his last

breath, she never got an answer definitive, only certainty that she had done what she had to do to continue living, to honor the memory of his sister Yvon, to don’t let the lake swallow him up completely. This documentary exists so that stories like those of Lucienne do not disappear in oblivion, so that generations future people know what really happened spent in these camps, far from the speeches official and simplified stories.

Each survivor’s testimony is a irreplaceable treasure, a window open to an era that we do not must never forget. But these voices go out one by one. Every year, we lose dozens of witnesses direct from this period. Soon he will remain only documents, photographs, recordings. This is why it is crucial to continue to tell, to preserve, to transmit.

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Lucienne lived with her questions for 64 years. Now, they belong to you because they are by confronting ourselves with these dilemmas impossible morals we learn truly what it means to be human. And it’s by listening to stories like these we remember why we should never ever let history repeat itself.

Thank you for listening to the end. Thank you for having granted Lucienne Morau the respect and attention she deserved during her lifetime, but she never fully received. His story does not probably won’t leave anytime soon. It’s normal, it’s even desirable because the stories that haunt us are those who transform us. Subscribe, comment, share and above all, never forget the lake is still there.

The barbelets of Ravensbruck are still standing, transformed into a memorial. But as long as we tell these stories, as long as we refuse to look away, those who suffered are never really dead. They live in our memories and it is our sacred duty to keep them alive.